Don't look just wait. I came up with this motto the summer after my freshman year of college. By this point in my life I had already experienced friends coming and going, heartache, and various types of change. That summer I was ready for some consistancy. I wanted to push myself. I was ready and eager to make close friends and even to fall in love. But before I could accomplish any of this I realized I needed to form an even stronger bond with myself. I needed to break away from ties (at least in my mindset) and go back to my roots; my individuality.
What makes me happy? It was an easy enough question, but I only came up with a list of random hobbies. I needed something more satisfying. I needed to become so in tune with myself that it gratified me to the core. The past year I worked on this and did pretty well in the beginning. But like most goals, you start off well and then get busy and lose sight of what's important. I've come to the conclusion that I'm the type of person who throws themselves into whatever their passion may be at the time. When you're passionate about something you're going to put your entire being into it and ask for nothing in return, which isn't always a bad thing. But by doing this I've slowly lost pieces of myself.
By saying "Don't look. Just wait" I'm telling myself to slow down, to stop thinking about the future, and to stop planning things. It's a reminder to myself to live for the moments and if I'm happy with myself good things will follow. Take it or leave it, it's my philosophy on life. I'm about to reconnect with myself (again) hopefully with such a strong bond that I don't lose sight of myself, my dreams, or my happiness ever again. But hey, what did I say about thinking about the future? Don't look just wait.
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